March 27, 2014
Josh came walking in the front door of the house and took his boots off, "Hey Baby, will you make me some koolaid with ice please?" As I walked out of the bedroom and into the kitchen, he stopped me and said that everything will be ok. I went to hug him and he disappeared, I couldn't touch my husband! I woke up from this horrible dream.
March 27, 2014 is a day in my life's history that will forever be notorious. It is the day my husband became my Guardian Angel. It is the day my children became fatherless and I became a 28 year old widow. I have felt heartache before, but nothing compared to this. In fact, in my own opinion, giving birth can't even compare to the pain I feel. I will never forget how I learned of my husband's death, and I will share that with you...
I dropped Josh off at work about 6:45 AM, when he turned to wave bye as I was driving out of the parking lot, it was a weird feeling in my body, but I ignored it. I got home and got the kids ready for school and started my day. About lunch time, I started baking cookies....Macadamia Nut and then I was going to bake Josh's favorite, chocolate chip. When it was time to get the kids, I realized Josh didn't call me. He usually calls me just as soon as he gets off work, but he didn't call this time. His cousin, Ron was going to pick him up so they could practice for an upcoming tournament. When I started calling Josh about 3:30 PM which is the time he should have been home, he didn't answer. So, I got on FaceBook to get Ron's number. That's when I saw it: WALB: Breaking News! Accident at Southwest Georgia Ethanol. My heart stopped. I called the plant and I told them I heard of an accident, they told me they were so sorry for me to hear this way, but yes, it was Josh. He got caught in an auger and died instantly. He didn't suffer. I immediately fell to my knees, about dropping my 4 month old Henry on the floor. I cried out loud, Charity and Joshua were right there. At 3:45 PM, my world was forever changed.
My husband, lover, best friend, companion and father to our three beautiful children was gone. He was dead. Never to return. I can not begin to explain the amount of pain my heart feels. I can't begin to explain the anger and hurt I feel towards God and his company. It was his day off....he was doing a job that wasn't even his title. It has been fifteen days since I last saw my husband. Fifteen days since I felt his hand on mine as we were driving. Fifteen days since he kissed my lips.
I have had two dreams of Josh. Both I can not touch him. What I would give to touch him again!
Just please do me a favor, hug your loved ones a little tighter, tell them you love them one more time. Let them know how you feel. We are never promised tomorrow. I have learned that the hard way, and my heart is broken into a million pieces.
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March 27, 2014 is a day in my life's history that will forever be notorious. It is the day my husband became my Guardian Angel. It is the day my children became fatherless and I became a 28 year old widow. I have felt heartache before, but nothing compared to this. In fact, in my own opinion, giving birth can't even compare to the pain I feel. I will never forget how I learned of my husband's death, and I will share that with you...
I dropped Josh off at work about 6:45 AM, when he turned to wave bye as I was driving out of the parking lot, it was a weird feeling in my body, but I ignored it. I got home and got the kids ready for school and started my day. About lunch time, I started baking cookies....Macadamia Nut and then I was going to bake Josh's favorite, chocolate chip. When it was time to get the kids, I realized Josh didn't call me. He usually calls me just as soon as he gets off work, but he didn't call this time. His cousin, Ron was going to pick him up so they could practice for an upcoming tournament. When I started calling Josh about 3:30 PM which is the time he should have been home, he didn't answer. So, I got on FaceBook to get Ron's number. That's when I saw it: WALB: Breaking News! Accident at Southwest Georgia Ethanol. My heart stopped. I called the plant and I told them I heard of an accident, they told me they were so sorry for me to hear this way, but yes, it was Josh. He got caught in an auger and died instantly. He didn't suffer. I immediately fell to my knees, about dropping my 4 month old Henry on the floor. I cried out loud, Charity and Joshua were right there. At 3:45 PM, my world was forever changed.
My husband, lover, best friend, companion and father to our three beautiful children was gone. He was dead. Never to return. I can not begin to explain the amount of pain my heart feels. I can't begin to explain the anger and hurt I feel towards God and his company. It was his day off....he was doing a job that wasn't even his title. It has been fifteen days since I last saw my husband. Fifteen days since I felt his hand on mine as we were driving. Fifteen days since he kissed my lips.
I have had two dreams of Josh. Both I can not touch him. What I would give to touch him again!
Just please do me a favor, hug your loved ones a little tighter, tell them you love them one more time. Let them know how you feel. We are never promised tomorrow. I have learned that the hard way, and my heart is broken into a million pieces.
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